Pina Coladas and Roses

bored a tthe center

2005-10-24T19:23:49Z

Sitting at the writing center bored cauz my students dont need me today...yay for gettin paid to do nothing! Took this quiz...

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RAVEN EYES

You have Raven
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Intellectual,
Wise, Experienced, Honest,
Trustworthy
Negative Traits: Pompous,
Condescending, Withdrawn, Pessimistic,
Depressed

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I have decided that I hate work and that I would like to be a bum for the rest of my life...thinkin about buying a large box and taking uip a residence in Cali somewhere...who's with me...we can split the price and make it a condo =0)

Everthing you didnt need to know about me

2005-10-21T03:27:24Z

A survey that was passed onto me that is so good, I coulda come I came up with it! uhoh..that means u should be afraid wahahaha...I was asked to pass it on, so I am...keep it spreaing like crabs in a frat house!

1.) Favorite furry creature: gerbil

2.) Favorite non-furry creature: Horse

3.) Thing you would find most disturbing if it were in your pants: probably either a squirrel or raw hamburger meat

4.) If your parents had any taste they would have named you... : hey, like my name...though Anastasia is a much cooler version

5.)If you could pay two of your friends to fight to the death who would they be and why?: jonah and dave, or dave and matt...dotn really know who would win that one...though it would be hot to watch

6.) Have you ever mud wrestled? no

7.) If no, would you consider mud wrestling? yes

8.) If yes, would ever consider mud wrestling with me? depends who u are

9.) Last thing you ate: pizza

10.) What you wish the last thing you ate really was: your mom

11.) 6 uses for a chinchilla: a pet, a tasty snack, a pillow, something soft to masturbate with, a way to scare the crap out of ur roommate by sticking it in their bed, and a good excuse for something eating ur homework

12.) 4 uses for a spatula. making pancakes, a tool for kinky sex, wepon to kill that annoying bitch who smokes outsde ur apartment and stinks up the place, and u can dress it up like a doll and have it for an imaginary friend

13.) 2 uses for a chef's hat. a hot new fashion statement, a bowl for cereal when ure too lazy to do dishes

14.) Last friend to nearly make you piss your pants and why? jen with the guy at the bar and the dreds and poking the green shirt stalker guy!!!!! haha!!!!

15.) Its the last day before earth explodes and you are the only that knows. What are the top three things you would do and would you tell anyone why you were doing them? I would do a strip tease at a bar for money then with it fly to Jamaica with the one guy I always wanted to bang since high school and have hot passionate sex on the beach a drink pina coladas until im in a stuper

16.) A bus with 15 tadpoles, a german tourist, two members of a southern rock band who haven't bathed in 22 days and a gaggle of nuns pulls up in front of your favorite local bar. If you had to have sex with one of them that night (your life depends on it) who would it be?
Probably the nuns....hope they all arent virgins, that would be a mess...someone besides me needs to know what they're doing

17.) First pets name? Sandy

18.) What on earth posessed you to name that poor animal that? she was a gerbil and sand colored, plus i was obsessed with the movie grease at the time

19.) Siblings? joe

20.) If yes, would you put your money on them to outrun cannibals or bet on the cannibals? id bet on the cannibals..hes not a runner

21.) You just got kicked out of the United States for getting a speeding ticket in North Carolina and never appearing in court. In what country would you take up residence? probably australia...i love the accents...soooohott..want to touch the hynie!!!

22.) If you had to live in a box, which major metropolitan area would you choose to take up residence? San francisco..it wont get cold there

23.) Number one person you would want to lose your virginity to if you still had it.
Brad Pitt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blah bah blahith

2005-10-21T01:17:52Z

Im alive..just too tired and sick to write anything....plus anything im thinking is just too complicated right now anyway....bleh...back to the chicken soup...

good news update:
Im a model for Bolzano Leather in NYC and will be appearing in an in-store ad within the next month or so (yay for exposure, money,and free leather jackets for me!)
Also got another ad to shoot for on Wednesday for this new NY designer...pretty cool

TTFN...sleep time for me

ps- rum does not prevent u from getting sick from the coldness..nomatter how much they tell u that it will...

Bored and horny....bad combination

2005-09-30T03:19:59Z

Had a long yet short day. Woke up late so i slept through a class, and didnt get up in time enough to even bother gong to the second one. So I caught up n my modeling emails and then went to my 3rd class. Watched a Charlie silent video which was entertaining enough, then headed to my 4th class with angryjohnny which was cancelled cauz ur teacher is asthmatic or soemthing and dying. then got back to the apartment ages later after a long bus ride and watched some quality tv (that being "old school") which was on the ru channel. Oli texted me today askin what I ws doin on tuesday and how i shoud keep it open for him as he as a surprise. little scarred by that...think its goin too far possibly now...the boy needs to know his boundaries...dotn want bledrii to get in there cauz then that would be a massacre. Neway, Had to go to work so I left early to try and get some extra hours. ran into tess and we talked about her new bf ( a freshman surprisingly enough). I told her about the oli and ex-bf issues that have been occuring, and she pointed out a very interesting observation...that for the last 3 years, these two have always been there and they have been trying to work it to me at least most of that time. Strange but shes right..never tthought about it that way before, but shes right. I dotn now how to assess the situation now. So maybe shes right tht the ex still has a flame for me there somewhere, but whats oli's deal? Only time can tell guess...but he still needs ot be shot down soon. Damn boys...is it that tme of the month or something?

Neway, I went to work after and did my thing, gettin a migraine half way through my shift (bleh). Then i had to wait 30 minutes for a bus back to the apartment. It still didnt come so i decided to walk. beat the bus here too...i hate RU sometimes. So thats about it. The bf is comin down from NY this weekend again (yay!) and goin with me on my shoot in cornwall,pa tomorrow. Good cauz ppl ten dto eave me alne when he's around..like the all got balls til he's in town...Hopefully we'l get to relax and send some time together this weekend instead of having to run around and shit. Thats about it...i think...now time for sleep....must sleep...

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This past weekend...

2005-09-28T04:42:21Z

Been so busy ...but heres an update to prove i am alive...

"All work and no play make (me) a very horny girl" -Danny fromWildfire

Well not quite like that...lol...i am dying for a break though, but how can i say no? I love my classes just hate all the reading which takes up way too much time. Got my 2 jobs I'm working so I can have some fun money after I pay off all my car insurance for the year (almost there! yay!). And modeling is taking off, which I have so much fun doing (not to mention the extra cash is a great plus to save for spring break this year). Lovin life right now, as crazy as it is, and although I complain about my schedule I love always running around and having to be somewhere...makes me feel accomplished I guess. I should have some time in the next week or so to start chillin with all you friends I have been neglecting so dont worry...we'll get to party it up soon enough!

This weekend was fun...Thursday night one of my guy friends talked me into going out to a party. Wound up getting busted by the cops which was exciting and we had to leave. My friend was in an interestin g drunken state and slyly tryin to put the moves on me which was hilarious, being that I was sober. Drunken people are so entertaining. Except when Im trying to drive home and they keep throwing themselves in the street as Im trying to drive..grrr...no tlike i was drivin drunk or nething but I probably woulda failed a breath test. Yeah i know, bad bad bad...eh whatever. Then on Friday night I went out with the girls for Sped's 22nd birthday. We went to Stuff yer face and got fishbowls which arent good to get drunk off of, but they are still awesome. Then my roommates bf disappeared and left without telling her so I stayed and helped her look for him and deal with drama. Turns out he and his friend went ahead to another bar that we were goin to next...asshole move though, coulda told her. She was pissed as hell. Luckily she gets over stuff fast when you give her enough drinks..lol. My guy friend came out again and met up with us and we got drinks and stuff. Kinda funny how he got so frickin jealous when other guys would talk to me or dance with me. He even would pull me away from them like he was saving me...kinda weird. I mean i havent had a guy that actually like me in awhile. They either dont go for it or just arent that obvious or something. Kinda throws me off guard. I know how to work it and flirt but once real feelings are involved its a different story, I dont wanna hurt anyones feelings or lead neone on. plus he knows im attached so i dotn now what he's really ookin to do...gotta be on guard...But neway, the rest of the night was fun. I got a good buzz and the roomates friends from newark came up. Tall dave was there too (yes i am talking about u =0p ). Hes a cool guy...should talk to him more. Plus any guy that buys me a drink gets a plus from me. haha. Drove back at the end of the night and crashed after binging on tons of mini pizza pockets. Soooo good! Oh yea..there was this druk guy on col ave who was palying guitar...he serenade my roomie then ran down the street screain and slamming out the cords...very funny...

Got up early the next day and went to a shoot for some stock photography with my escort. Fastest money I ever made! We stopped at au bon pan and got bagels and such (awesome bagels) and we also got rita's!!! I am so addicted to gelati now!! Damn you Bledrii! Its all your fault! lol. Not much else went on. Just chilled a bit and studied for my exam monday morning. Looking to be a good week so far. Had a shoot Monday night for a possible bridal magazine ad so cross your fingers for me! Either way the photographer is gonna hire me again for a paid shoot so thats some extra cash there too. Yay! i like money! Especially cauz dating who i am turns out to be a very expensive hobby...lol! It was my own free will...i think...lol.

Slept through my first class today, and it was a double period so it sux...like missin 2 classes so thats bad. I blame my friend matt in OH..called me up int he middle of the night cauz he got arrested for stppin in to help a friend out in a fight...sux auz i couldnt sleep after that really since im all worried about him now...its an assault cahrge but the other kid is in the hospita now and not ookin too good...if he dies it coud be a manslaughter...dotn need another person i care about to spend any time in jail...

Lots of exams comin up nth next couple weeks so I'll be scarce once again...hop i do well since i dont have much study time...i need to buckle down and get shit done...oh yea, been aso havin lots of weird dreams lately with one particular ex bein in them...kinda weird since i dotn talk to him much until recently...although he is hot so its not that bad...lol jk...

well bedtime for me..hopwfully tonites dream will involve brad pitt or orland bloom or both! haha!

its kinda me...

2005-09-14T21:28:46Z

Your Birthdate: June 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit.
You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.
Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual.

Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.
You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.
Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Back to school comes but once a year

2005-09-14T21:24:59Z

SO Im back at school. Got a great appartment with Jen and Christine. the 4th girl dropped out ut thats all right cauz we didnt like her much anyway...bad first impression. The apartment looks awesome and i love it..even if it is a little girly for me. Got a beach theme goin...its comin together...now if only i could figure out how to get a tiki bar in here we'd be set! Classes are good...I actually have ones I like and dont mind going to. The psych classes arent bad, just too much reading...Matt from faire is in one of my classes for education so its weird but in a cool way. Just the last person I would expect to be in class with me...bekkah is in my personality class which is awesome cauz i dont see her much anymore...my comic lit class is a joke literally. All we do is sit around and tell dirty jokes and pass notes to the professor to read out loud, 4 classes without a note yet...i wonder what the midterm is on? lol...the modeling thing is taking off quick..got a bunch of jobs lined up for the next month and some good opportuniies to make some money (outside of my other 2 jobs i have right now..ahhh! im so busy!). Its so exciting! Im hyped! ...hopefully get to see the bf once n awhile between his travels...miss him a lot...it weird how u miss someone more when they are farther away. Although he has been a lot cuter lately so maybe its a good thing lol...the year is gonna be interesting though...i can tell already...its as my mom always asks me "so how are all ur men doing?"...it starts already lol...ill be alright so long as i behave myself (but its so hard! im too much of a flirt by nature! Its not my fault...really i swear). I cant help that Im an attention whore....went to a few house parties already and more to come! Really need to go to some bars though and try to get ppl to buy my broke-ass drinks. SHouldnt be too hard ;0) So neway..the year is shaping up to be promising and i can tell some really good and memorable times are ahead! WOOHOO SENIORS...last year! In our prime!

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-08-11T10:13:00

2005-08-11T14:24:05Z

So yesterday was my third and final shoot booked for this week. It was such an amazing experiance. The photographer was a professional and brought a MAC makeup artist with him from NYC. The pictures from what i saw on the camera we absolutely amazing!, so i cant wait to see how great they look on the computer. I am so spoiled after working with a professional that i never wanna work with the amateurs again! lol. Oh well, i can be a lot more picky after i have a decent portfolio built. The photographer is such a cool guy too, has a british accent, and one of those creative geniuses thats a lil off the wall from no outside contact since hes in a studio all day...but definately a fun guy. the bf came with me again of course but he wasnt allowed in the studio area. He was actually okay with that too, so i knew it was gonna be a great experiance. Thats it for now...just gotta take back all these clothes i bought for the shoot so im not poor anymore...ttfn =0)

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-08-09T17:26:00

2005-08-09T21:30:24Z

Well I had another photo shoot today for this guy in Piscataway. It was a lot of fun but tiring having to keep moving around and changing into new outfits. I hope they turn out well. It wasnt paid this time but I will get print copies of the 10 or so best shots. Then i can always scan them later too. I wont get ot have a look at the proofs until like friday though so I'm gonna have to wait. The hpotographer wants to mayeb do anothr session in the next couple weeks but i wanna wait and see how the work tunred out first before I decide. Thats about it for now. Im tired...I may write more later.

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-08-08T22:05:00

2005-08-09T02:15:28Z

Today was a very exciting day...I had my first paid photo shoot!!!! I am now officially a model!!!! It was so much fun. The photographer was this guy in Belvedire. We did a few hours of candelight work which involves pfocusing on the way light reflect off the curves of the body. It was great! I'll be getting a copy of all the pictures also and when I do I'll be sure to put some up on my photo site to share with everyone. I am glad that my bf went with me though cauz it made it a little more comfortable having someone I knew there, even if the assisstant was female anyway. I have another shoot tomorrow and one on Wednesday. I can't wait..there may be hope for me yet! Keep dreaming and you never know!

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-08-02T18:54:00

2005-08-02T23:52:16Z

I just had the most awesomely awesome weekend ever! I thought my bf would still be away for at least another week but i got a call from him on friday night saying he caught a flight home and would be in at 1am! So i stayed up checking the flight schedules for hours and the damn flight was late by like 2 hours! Finally the time tracker thing said it took off so i started my packing for the weekend and the long drive to the airport. It was a total zoo in newark so i wound up parking in the short term lot and having to pay, but it was worth it cauz the look on his face when i actually met him inside the terminal...its just one of those things that lets u actually see how someone feels about you, even though you already know that they love you...it was great..i didnt thinnk he could miss me that much, though i know he doesnt like admitting it...we got his luggage at baggage claim and drove the even longer drive back to his house. It wasnt until 4am that we actually got to sleep, and having rehearsal for bucks in the morning sucked ass, but it was worth it=0) Afterward we went back to his house and took a nap, if u could call it that since it lasted 6 hours! Then we went out to dinner with swabere and G. We went to this mexican place that was really good...definately expanded my knowledge past the horizons of taco bell. We then rented Constantine. Great movie, even for keanu reeves. Sunday we decided to drive up to the water gap and go exploring for a place to put in the boat for our trip. We stopped at a bunch of places and went hiking. then we found this reat rock beach and went swimming for hours. It was so much fun but exhausting cauz the current was so strong. After that we stopped to check out a few more places and found this one trail with dozens of tiny frogs along them...they were so cute! I wanted one but they were too fast to catch. The bf says that we can come with a bucket next time and catch a few, though i think i may feel bad keeping them. We both were ready to pass out when we got home. I so didnt want to go to work the next day, but the people i work for said that they needed me when i called and my possible day off wasnt gonna happen...i was really upset cauz i wanted to spend another day with the bf and go to the gap again. Luckily, they called back and said i didnt have to work on monday! whoopie! We rented more movies...hide and seek, finding neverland, and saw (for him...i dont know what it is but i dont wanna see that movie for some reason). Hide and seek was pretty good, totally unexpected ending, however i think the 3rd alternate ending they give is the better one and would've made the movie great instead of good. On monday we went back to the water gap, but this time we stopped and bought snorkels so we could really swim somewhere...it was a lot of fun. we saw a giant fish and lots of eels. luckily they stayed near the rocks and the bottom so we didnt have to worry. We swam for at least 2 hours before we both passed out on the beach. Its just so relaxing up there with the sounds of the water and the trees...i cant wait for our trip! Then we headed home and had dinner at the cracker barrel...pretty good food...and watched finding neverland. that mvie is genius. i loved it! now i know why the movie store was always out of it for about a month. I hated havign to leave last night cauz i enjoyed my weekend so much with him. I dont know what it was that made it so great. It was definatly a partial attitude change on his part, and maybe on mine too. It was just like for once he wasnt thinking about work and life when we were together, just us...it was awesome. Got to live those moments up when i can since i know there are probably still some hard times for him and us ahead..."just keep swimming! just keep swimming!" lol...

**this weekend went great until something came to my attention that i feel the need to say something about before i let it go forever. i checked one of my online profiles last night and saw a message from some unknown person (im guessing their profile was made up since it didnt have much in it and it was newly registered for). This person is trying to start crap between my bf and me by the way of getting us to fight or even break up by playing stupid games and accusing ppl with bullshit! I wont go into details and i wont explain any further because whoever did it knows and will read this here or the other places ive posted it...but know this...i am a very nice and patient person, as most have seen; however, i can gaurantee that none of you have ever seen me get angry before, and it is not something that you would want to see. Be forewarned that if ANYONE tries to hurt me or, more importantly the people i love and those relationships that i have with those ppl, and i find out who you are, the consequences will not be to your liking. And do not think that i will never find out it was you or so and so, because i will. Somehow, I always find out, whether it be sooner or later. I am very defense when it comes to those i care about. I absolutely refuse to let this immature action, or others like it in the future, make any sort of impact on my life, or an impact on those ppl whom i love.

To those of you who are not involved or have no clue as to what i am talking about i apologize for the brief moment of negativity. **

As for today it was pretty quiet watching kelly. Sarah wasnt around so the usually fighting and whining wasnt going on. Got some reading done too. Basically a pretty relaxed day. Working on finding out what i am going to do with the rest of my life...ugh..i dont wanna grow up...its driving me nuts but its not like i can really talk to anyone about it...its just something that happens and has to happen and theres no fighting it...i wish the summer could last forever soemtimes...

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-07-28T22:03:00

2005-07-29T02:24:01Z

Not too much going on today...work was alright but the girls we're running around screaming all day so i wound up with a headache. I'm half way thru my 3rd book in the series im reading..got 4 to go i think, but the bf's got the rest with him, so i think i'll have to find something else to occupy me til he gets back with them. I got an email from a photographer today who looked me up on my profile. He wants me to do some modeling for him for his portfolio, so Im excited! It'll be my first paid job too and its not bad either. So i'll get paid money plus get copies of the shots. He does soem really nice work...Only thing I'm a lil iffy about is that some of the shots he wants to do involve some nude work...nothing full on, just lighting reflecting off the body's curves and stuff, but I'm a little hesitant since Ive never done anything like that before. Dont know how the bf would take it either. But i'm sure i'll be bringing him along neway to check it out with me. I can always decide later...Other shots are gonna be fantasy based themes with faeries and magic. Sounds so cool! just sux cauz now i have to stop the "see-food" diet ive been on for the last week...need to be healthy again...Got a call from bucks today and they only cast the main storyline so far..im a lady in the court. should be fun, its something different for me. The bf is gonn ago out on his first job after his training so i dont know when i'll get to see him again. i hope soon...the week goes by so slow when i cant see him cauz i got nothin to look forward to really sinc ei have the most fun with him...only person i can really be myself around anymore...had rehearsal tonight for snow white and it was just 3 hours of bs like normal...once i would love to actually rehearse and not waste my time, but that would be logical grrrr...good news is i think i dont have to wear that horrid dress anymore cauz we're gonna try and use my prom dress from hs (ren-inspired type)...oh well...dont think much else is happening for right now...i stil haev my headache from this afternoon so i think i'll go take so pills and pass out for the night. Sleep tight everyone !

"Nothing is perfect in this world. It's a given fact of natural err. But did u ever have something that was so close to being perfect, so close to having every little flaw gone, that it just made those minute things seen like they were the biggest in the world? How come, even when we know there is no such thing as perfection, do we strive to fix the imperfections, and knowingly hurt ourselves even more by emphasizing that it can never be?" -anonymous philosopher

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um...yeah...?

2005-07-27T21:11:56Z

Yeah so i get a call at 2am last night after i finally got myself asleep and its my ex...i actually thought it was the boy and answered out of reflex cauz he's out of state right now...i dunno i was asleep ...big surprise when the voice didnt match up...so neway the normal conversation lasted for only a minute this time and jumped to incredibly awkward in 0.02 seconds... he started saying in his mildly drunken state how he actually misses me and how he's been thinking about us, how he's never stopped loving me and that he knows theres a future for us cauz he knows who im with now isnt a permanent thing, and goin off about some kinda crazy dream he had with us being married and living in north jersey....what the hell am i supposed to do with this? luckily i could pass off my lack of response to my tiredness from having been woken up, and im sure his ineubriation aided me in escaping giving any reply, but still...what the hell?! it was so random! and i dont even know what to say! why do all the weird things happen when the bf is out of town? i guess its like when the bf is away, the hopefuls try to play... or somehting like that...does the whole universe sense that he's in another state or something? *sigh* so now im left with this info, not having any clue what to do or say about it, knowing its definately gonna put a damper at the whole trying to get ot be friends again thing which had been goin alright up til now...im still kinda hoping i dreamed it, i mean ive had dreams where ppl called me before that i thought was real...bleh...its not so much that it bothers me per say, since i already kinda "knew" that this was gonna come up and i had a feeling that it was gonna be soon, but its just one of those things thats out there now since it was actually said and u cant not think about it occasionally because now ure gonna have to deal with it...especially when u know it will most likely be discussed at a later date again...i hate havign to deal with stupid crap...if a certain part of ur life is over, why does it always have to try and come back?

eh...other than that little addition of the inevitable and seemingly inexscapable soap opera saga of my life, theres not much to report...bf's doing well at his raining but he's tired cauz they're working hard and studying for 12 hours a day...cant wait til tonight when i can talk to him again...thats about it for now i guess...i may update later tonight if i'm bored enough...

Some of these answers are just so fitting...lol

2005-07-25T22:03:18Z

Your LiveJournal Pirate Crew
LiveJournal Username
Fifteen men on a dead man's chest!
Cutlass or pistol?
What is the name of your pirate ship?
Where is your secret pirate base?
What kind of loot do you prefer?
What do you and your crew prefer to be called?
Parrot or monkey?
Argh!

Your capable first mate	gogleberry
Your bumbling cabin boy with a heart of gold	bledri
The aloof, yet honorable, pirate with a mysterious past	vilnolin
Is always the first one into the fray	kurgan_lyonesse
Is the naval officer who ruthlessly pursues your ship	gogleberry
Is the comical pirate who is always drunk on grog	vilnolin
Is currently in Davy Jones's locker	bledri
The amount of money you make as a pirate	$137,446


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LiveJournal Username
Sexual preference
Favorite love oil flavor?
Favorite way to receive pain?
Favorite type of condom?
What's your opinion of Pornography?
Favorite Musical Genre?
Favorite Musical Group?
Best Movie ever?

The Romantic stud. Long haired and well endowed, he takes his prey by force in the forest.	swabere
The bitchy queen in heat, Forces her slaves to do unpeakable acts of passion with her Tiger.	kurgan_lyonesse
The loser actor with bad skin, that only got one scene because he had a 14 incher.	gogleberry
The old stretched out actress, that can take a bowling ball, with 25+ labia piercings.	kurgan_lyonesse
Star of the weird puking, turd eating Japanese schoolgirl scene	vilnolin
The creepy old out of shape hairy guy, that only got a scene because he financed the movie.	vilnolin
Virgin, that doesn't really like being in the movie, but need more crack real bad.	swabere
The "Fluffer"	bledri


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LiveJournal Username
favorite drink
weapon of choice
do you like the taste of envelope glue?

the evil ninja mastermind hellbent on world domination	sirchristian
the bewitching and sexually ambiguous one that no one knows anything about	vilnolin
the scarysmart one, eerily calm even in the midst of chaos	gogleberry
the tiny, seemingly-delicate one with a deadly temper and awesome strength	bledri
the pale, quiet one who turns out to be really, really scary	swabere
the sexy, smirking anti-villain who joins your side at the last moment	swabere
the snarky punk mercenary who's only there for the money and coz they love a good fight	kurgan_lyonesse
the distant arrogant aristocrat who wants to bring down the society they were born into	vilnolin


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You wear a mask and a cape?
Your Superpower(s):
How you received your powers:

Your stubborn second in command:	vilnolin
The hot one:	gogleberry
The comical yet useless one:	swabere
The quiet, mysterious one:	sirchristian
The converted ex-villain	kurgan_lyonesse
Your mortal enemy, the baddest villain of them all:	bledri
Your Superheadquarters:	A secure room, accessible only by a locked door in a dingy bar
Number of issues your comic book will last:	602


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cruptdinnocence @ 2005-07-24T17:52:00

2005-07-24T22:15:21Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So its the end of another weekend...Friday night was fun in that i finally got the bf to come to friday's and party with us. A sad nite though cauz it was Ernest's last night working and brian had just previously had a spat with his rents, so he was upset...but we all had a great time. apparently im getting my tolerance back too cauz i drank a lot and really didnt feel a thing...dont know if thats good or bad...decided not to go to that party at oli's house cauz 1) bf was there and 2) me goin by myself probably wouldnt be smart...i had to promise id see him this week though so i hope he'll forget...i stayed in high bridge friday night since bucks auditions were so close to there, plus i get to be with my sleeping buddy for the night...i always sleep better when im with him, i dunno, just comfy i guess. Saturday me and the boy went to auditions but i just wasnt in the mood to do anything. I read horribly but then again i cant do readings anyway so im not too bothered by it. I got to do a fight audition which was a lot of fun. I wish i knew how to fight or could for that matter, it would be so cool...damn wrists...glad i got to do the sequence with anthony rather than burf cauz burf was taking a really long time with everyone and for some reason he just makes me really nervous whenever he's trying to tell me how to do something...after auditions we had to drive around all of nj looking for these gloves he need for his training this week...of course home depot had them after we drove everywhere else for 5 hours, figures...we went back up to his house and made pina coladas and rented million dollar baby. it was a great movie, but so sad...i managed not to cry so im proud of myself...he was being so cute all day...i loved it...i know its probably just cauz he had to leave for texas today, but thats all right. with him i have to take what i can get. We woke up really early this morning and drove to the airport. I was so mad that he had to go away on his birthday...i had something really awesome planned for him to celebrate...maybe next year if the timing's right...grrr...but it will be worth it if this job works out for him and he's happy... I hate when he goes away...not like i see him during the week neway but i miss him so much more when theres hundreds of miles between us...psychological thing i guess...his flight should eb gettin in any minute now and i cant wait til he calls...oh yea, i opened my mail from the last couple days and i got a scholarship for school! woohoo $1100! granted its not gonna make a big dent in what my family and i have to shell out but its a lot. it will at least cover some of the fucking $2000 tuiton hike that they just instated (fucking nj ounselors and their god damn budgets..and they wonder why our state is one big skanky ghetto). other good news is that i conviently ran by the idea of having my car on campus to my rents right after i told them about the scholarship and they said it would be greatnot having to pick me up all the time! whoopie! so i applied online and got my parking permit today so im all set! now i can definately do bucks and also have a way to see the bf on the weekends...so im in a good mood, my parents arent up my ass today cauz of the scholarship thing, and this semester is pretty much set up and ready to go...cant get any better today =0)

cruptdinnocence @ 2005-07-20T15:08:00

2005-07-20T20:12:32Z

Woohoo! so excited... canoeing down the delaware next weekend (we were gonna go this weekend but soemthing came up so its up in the air right now)...but still so excited...im goin with the boy toy (my bday gift for him) and my male lesbian love (heart-u brian!) and hopefully kendra too im so excited... lots of swimming, alcohol, camping, and fun, and gang bangs..jk...woohoo i cant wait! ::bounces up and down spaztically:: hehehehehehe...so awsome...!!!! yeah im excited...

neway to recap a lil from the events and thoughts from this past week... i got snagged into doing an extended verison of the renfest snow white play and had rehearsal (if thats what u call it), so i couldnt go out for drinks with my bday twin last thurs...i wasnt gonna do it cauz i was planning to go out to MI that day, but i felt bad being that i am the main role...so i got that performance in 2 weeks in dunellen (shoot me now)...then friday i headed up to the boy's and had a night of drinking and its subsequent, um, results...he's a lot more enjoyable after he comes close to death by diving off a bridge...the next day we drove around and tried to find an inflatable raft and MRE's and planned our trip up the delaware...then sunday we tested out the boat and rowed around for about 2hrs...god my arms hurt still...im gonna be so buff after this trip hehe...saw lots of deer and little turtles! turtle are awesome! I tried to catch them but they all jumped into the water before i could get close enough...also saw a bunch of ducks...i so wanted to squeeze them but jonah wouldnt let me (what? ducks look squishy...really they do)...then we joined up with levirgo to go to newhope in the pouring rain...drank at the bar and had a good time stumbling around town for awhile...all in all things are goin good...cant wait til next weekend!!!!! woot woot!!!

Had a day off today from watchin the kids so i got to take a trip down to the beach...got there way early so it was nice and quiet for a long while...unfortunately this group of ppl showed up with noisy kids and there was this woman with a russian accent whining about everything she could possibly whine about...glad the bf didnt go afterall cauz it woulda driven him insane...although he had his own annoyanves to deal with today (his health and his truck). This weekend: Got auditions for bucks county renfaire on staurday so it should prove interesting. Also its the bf's bday on sunday so i need to get cracking on something spectacular to surprise him with...its hard to surprise him so a lot of plotting will be involved...Kinda nervous because mat had said a couple weeks ago that he'd be coming to nj this firday, consequently we will be hanging out for awhile to catch up. nervous not because it will be exceptionally weird or nething, but moreso because i have a feeling that at some point we will be hanging out alone. Its a very different scenerio when there arent other people there and it means we can talk the way we did back in hs, which scares me cauz i dont think i wanna get that close to him again. I still think im an idiot for even trusting him again as little as i do after what he did to me then...i dont know if its that i never learn (what is it fool me once shame on me, fool me 4 times and im a stupid asshole?)or what...though im sure i'll know what to do as time progresses...

Kevin called me earlier today to hang out tonite...not too sure if i want to. for one, wednesday is usually my Friday's nite with everyone and i think we may be having our "goodbye ernest" party tonite...for two, hanging out with kevin isnt the same anymore. He just seems so immature with everything he does and likes to do now for some reason, like he's a couple years behind me...technically i guess he is since he's been going to community college for the last 2 years and this past one was his first livign in a dorm, so mayeb its just working out of his system like i did my frosh year...but for some reason it seems more than that cauz i know that i am by no means mature enough to be calling someone else immature...whatever the reason is though i feel bad becauz he's been my best friend for a few years now and has really come thru when i needed him, and i know that if i need anything he'd be there faster than anyone else...it sux when u feel a friendship slipping away and u know u cant change it...i just feel ive moved on to another group of friends, a new stage in my life where i can finally be with and feel comfortable with ppl who i didnt go to hs with and who have their own life experiances...however, with how hard it is for me to make friends i really shouldnt be so quick to let go of those i have either...

i got invited to a party on friday over at one of the frat brother's house. Not sure if i wanna go or not...i really do wanna have a chance to party and have some fun, not to mention get to see a bunch of people who i havent seen since school ended...but its Oli's house...i know how much he likes me from what he's told me and by what ive seen in his eyes (the boy's an open book)...i feel bad cauz i know he hates being reminded that i have a bf and that we have to be "just friends." i feel like i lead him on cauz i do flirt a lot since i like the attention i get...he says im not at all but i know he wouldnt stick around if he didnt hope for something to happen...it's probably better that i sit this one out...

Not too much else going on for this week except work and lots of time in the gym...weird how im inspired to workout when i dont need to and then when i need to get in shape i cant even put my sneakers on...almost done with my book that i was reading too so now i gotta find more or actually start writing the one ive been plotting...ugh, im soo bored with life in general so im on the verge of of doing something crazy (by my standards that is). not sure what yet...but if i dont think of something soon im gonna go insane...yeah so thats it for the time being...ttfn, ta ta for now!

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2005-07-13T23:13:32Z

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Summer heat...bring on the return of the ex(s)...sorta

2005-07-13T00:34:46Z

So yesterday i actually decided to do something with one of my friends ...i figure if i keep ignoring them then i wont have any left by the time school starts. Luckily im only working afternoons for the next couple weeks so i can actually go out at night now a lil...but neway i went over to see Tess last nite. Got to watch wildfire, that new show on family channel...pretty good (all work and no sex make danny a dull girl..lol!) first time i saw a full episode so now im totally hooked...i think this is my new alias...so after that it was time to run out to the savior walgreens (that store has everything imaginable) to get a home perm kit for tess...stayed up for 4 hours rolling her hair around those tiny rods...neway so both of us kept getting calls all night from our ex's/crushers...really weird. First she got a call from this guy she dated a year ago for a booty call, then i got a text from this guy who soooo wants to get in my pants its not even funny, then she got a text from the lil boy she works with (not really little, he's a senior in hs so its little enough to be off limits) and spent at least half an hour texting back and forth about why he shouldnt come over so she wouldnt completely break his little teenage heart (awwww), then i got a text form my ex-bf from college asking when i was gonna visit him, then matt called me at like 1am cauz he couldnt sleep (thats the 3rd day in a row now, really startin to get strange)...we agree it has to be the mid-summer lust peak or something...though i dont think Tess minds too much since she's single and has "returned" mostly all of their calls. Tess nearly flipped out when she saw it was matt who called. apparently i forgot to mention that we started talking again over the last few months (oops)...

so yeah her hair came out great...minus the collection of chemical fums that will probably leave her bathroom smelling like a sulphur factory for a week. The things ppl go thru to get hair like mine...didnt get to talk to the bf at all today really since he fell asleep pretty early. Not like we woulda talked much anyway though. he's been really busy with his paper work lately and i feel bad calling him cauz i feel like im distracting him or interrupting or something. so ive been trying to call him less and give him space so he can get stuff done(hope he doesnt think im avoiding or something), which also helps me try and hang out with ppl...emphasis on the try. i think tomorrow night is friday's again...supposedly its becoming a weekly thing so i have to keep my calendar clear for it just in case...thurs night im hanging out with joe, goin for drinks or something since we still owe each other our annual twin bday present...he didnt do faire this year so i couldnt just send a rose like i normally do...should be interesting since ive never hung out with him before, not to mention that i think he makes the bf a lil jealous for whatever reason. still figuring out how im gonna tell him about that tonite....hmmmm....have no clue. Feeling alright today i guess, not happy or sad, just alright...like im just here. I hope tomorrow im in a little better moood though...the girls were really whiny today and it got really annoying really fast. It reminded me why i dont want to teach kids before they're in high school. i think tomorrow i'll just bring LOTR or Harry Potter and let them zone in front of the TV til their mom gets home. Eh, cant complain too much cauz it is the easiest job ever and i get paid to do nothing all day. I gotta have something to whine about though. talked to silva today briefly about me possibly going out there in august...i still dont know if i am cauz it was only going be soemthing to give me something to do for part of the time the bf was in pennsic, but he doesnt know if he's going anymore or not, so my plans are kinda up in the air. Naureen also wants me to do this snow white play for ppl who hired us for the 6th but thats the day i would leave to go to MI, so i dont know. Not like i would not go because of that, defiantely not, but cauz im not sure i really wanna do it at all and being out of state is a good excuse. I dont wanna say no if i dont have a real excuse cauz i feel like im lettin all those who said yes down since theres only lie 6 of us in the play to begin with. not to mention that itchy dress i had to wear is practically falling apart since my machine cant sew the shiny material...i gotta decide by tonite though cauz i need to call and let them know since the first rehearsal is on thurs nite...

kevin called me tonite to see if i wanna go to a movie with him and phi, but i have no money to spend this week really so i didnt call them back. I know they would probably pay for me but i feel bad having them do that. also i never invite them to do stuff cauz i cant pay so that just seems wrong to me, kind of like when girls ask guys out and expect the guy to still pay for everything...yeah bad analogy but its close enough. Still havent figured out what to do for the bf for his birthday...wanted to take him skydiving, which he knows, but i cant afford it. Not even that i cant afford to just pay for him to go and not me too...i could send half of him out of the plane...he didnt really like that idea though...i guess u would need both halves when falling out of a plane in order to land right. Hopefully i'll find something else to do for him, or at least some ideas so he can pick what he wants. What sucks is that i have great ideas i cant afford or are just too over the top which i dont wanna do cauz he didnt really do nething for my bday, so i dont want to be out of place. Its very hard for me to think of a present to give...i wanna get him something he'll really like that shows i care. Skydiving woulda been perfect cauz sometimes i dont think he knows that i really do understand his feelings of mundaneness and his need for thrills. It coulda showed that...eh, maybe for xmas...Spent most of the night watching this old 1940s movie on TCM. Dont know what its called but it was pretty good. Bad acting for the most part and so sappy its corny, but they always manage to make me cry...yeah thats just sad in itself, i admit it, but i like being able to cry once in awhile...lets me know im still human i guess. I feel so bored with everything lately...everything is a routine. i need to find some way to shake things up, but not in a bad way as im so apt at doing normally. much plotting shall be involved over the next few days...maybe hair dye or piercing will be involved...probably the latter cauz i dont think id make a good blonde.

To all us nice girls...

2005-07-12T15:45:31Z

Got this as a post from a friend....

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is a homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you***. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mind games, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick"you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intramural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a tee-shirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hung-over best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express.

Maybe nice guys finish last, but the nice girls are the ones waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congratulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

while the nice girls are waiting for that race to end, there fortunately IS enough chick flicks, chocolate, ice cream and your girl friends to help that wait seem shorter, and more like a journey to find "the one"

"everything that exists, started as a dream"

2005-07-06T23:37:04Z

So i got to spend my day with the girls again...went to the movies to the movies to see that weird shark boy one and the fire girl...it wasnt even a "good" kids movie. Never thought id say disney was awesome, but this movie proved it...only disney or pixar can pull off kid movies... did have a good quote though, "everything that exists, started as a dream" or something like that. wasnt feeling too good most of the day for some reason or another...think im still recouping from the weekend. I just kinda layed on the floor all day. Went to the gym after work but didnt get to swim again cauz just as i was about to get in the pool the thunder started...doesnt matter that it only happened once and the sun came out...damn nj and its stupid laws...oh well. i got to walk to my car in the rain again and get drenched in the process. I love the rain. It makes me smile. especially when i got to laugh at all the preppy girls who were coming back from their classes run around and scream cauz they got their hair wet hahaha...take that bitchy prisses! hahah ...not too mention that thunder sooooo turns me on (heh heh heh)...got a call from brian to go to friday's tonite so thats probably what i'll end up doing. Yay for ernest and his Victoria Secret Cosmos! matt also called me today (left message) strangely enough. i dont know why its strange, it just was for whatever reason. maybe cauz i had been thinking about him today for once, so one of those weird coincidences i guess? havent called silva in forever so i probably should do that tonite too. havent stayed in touch with a lot of people actually...it takes way too much time...oh yea i had one of those vison things i get today too...havent had one when i wasnt asleep for awhile so it caught me off guard...not too sure how to interpret it but it was more me just seeing a future event than something particularly meaningful. i'll just have to wait and see when it happens and then i can freak out with the dejavu feeling...no more thoughts for now...more to come

back to normalacy

2005-07-06T01:30:11Z

back to work again today after a tiring but fun weekend. Couldnt get up this morning but luckily the kids were still sleeping when i got there for once. basically napped all morning on the couch since i couldnt keep my eyes open...glad they werent too energetic today...took em out to the pool this afternoon for a little while. came home and passed out after work for a few hours...guess im not goin to work out today...i think all the blood is back in my alcohol system now...the bf told me he saved a dog today that was hurt...he's so cute when he does the hero thing (god i wanna rape him lol). working on his website tonite to update some things...sad when i work on his more than on mine, i doubt mine will ever get done sinc eits been 2 years int he making..oh well. still need to develop the other 4 rolls of pics from faire so i can finally be doen with putting them up online. not too much else going on that i know of yet for this week. im gonna use tonite to recover so i can be wild and crazy again next weekend maybe...gi rememebr my frosh year i could drink and party every night and still functiont he next day for classes....god i feel old now...gotta get in the groove again i guess. oh yea, got a date to see fantastic four on friday so im excited...flame on! and no im not talking about levirgo lol (though his hair is bright red now)! had soem weird dreams before..soemthing abotu haveing a b-day party for me where we could play inside the video games or soemthing...greg from hs was in it (and i have no idea why) and he was giving me ribbons for my wedding?...very weird...i should see that shrink one day...though i think i may scare her...cant wait to see what the rest of the week holds for me.

Rock the Casbah!

2005-07-06T01:20:37Z

summary update of this weekend...ill write more when im in the mood

Friday night:

Gym after work with lots of running and i got ot go swimming too!

Thunderstorm so pool closed early and matt now calls me the mighty Venus?

Home again and go running cauz Im in an awesome mood...

levirgo called and its out to friday's for drinks with him and trysta

ernest is leaving us! ohio, ur gettin a good bartender otu there...u better appreciate

double layer quesadillas! yum!

girl talk about the possible s.o. (trysta), the new boy (levirgo), and the current bf (me)

levirgo cant go to AC with me and the bf this weekend cauz he has a date on staurday (how gay of him)

drive home after callign someone...i dotn know who...that could be bad...hmmm

Staurday:
the bf "working" all morning while i get ready for AC

we talk levirgo into going cauz he likes us more anyway lol

drive up to the bf's house so he can pack

naptime!

meet up in south plainfield at levirgo's

drive down to AC, tons of traffic

Hard Rock for dinner...awesome drinks!

pin swapping and levirgo has thousands!

gamblign at the taj

alcohol! and its free! there is a god!

ooo pretty lights

slot machines spin around and around..ooo dizzy fun!

huh? whats going on? i won? really? oh lol

3 card rocks

levirgo's so gone haha..he not going home tonight! thats what he gets for trying to bail lol

slingshots and rock climbing on the boardwalk! damn my falling fear

driving around at 3am finding a hotel

pass out

Sunday:
wake up and breakfast at diner

back into AC

time for the beach..if thats what u call it

too many dirty ppl and too much wind

walk on boardwalk

lunch aka cheap beer at a pub

walk around town with my towel cape as stacy girl with her super sidekick blow job boy! oh no! its our
arch-nemesis leg-hupping-dog-boy...quick blowjob boy, u get him with ur super squirter while i distract
him with my super booty shake of doom! da da da!

pawn shop to sell engagement rings from ex's for slot money (hey the assholes owe us something..right levirgo!)

i can fly!

to ceasars!ooooo prettyness

toga toga toga!

i didnt win...levirgo did...

best long island's ever!

uh oh- levirgo's drunk again...is that karaoke?

the bf won! hutzah!

dinner at trump for motza ball soup! LOTZA MOTZA!!!

levirgo chained to me so he doesnt play slots nemore...ahhh he's carrying me away!!!!

finding another motel to stay in...last vacancy for 30 miles radius

levirgo and me rocking it out in the car...i want nothin but a good time! how can i resist!

hot tubs are fun!

a few good men on tv and pass out

Monday:
Denny's for breakfast and nachos

back to ceasar's

lost by lunch so bailed out

drove up north to beat traffic

stop at seaside for the afternoon

sleep on the beach

3 brothers for dinner

soooo tired..glad the bf drove home

pick up car in south plainfield

go home and pass out after doing laundry

awesome weekend, so much fun, so tired...must do that again!!!!! mayeb for july 29th when bsb will have a concert there...hmmm...neone 21 or older interested? heh heh heh

Raindrops keep fallin on my head =0)

2005-07-02T00:41:03Z

Im in a particularly good mood today sfor some unexplained reason...its nto often that Im actually happy for no reason, or even with a reason for that matter, so Im enjoying it. First time in awhiel i feel energetic and wanting to go out and have fun...unfortuantely all the ppl i could chill with are down in AC right now. Maybe I'll call my male lesbian lover and go to fridays and chug some sangria...good day with the girls today. The time went by really fast too which was good cauz although i love kids, one can only take so many arts and crafts and children's television programmign before youre singing kidz bop and gluing little foam shapes to your face...got paid to woohoo! Just in time for the car insurance which conviently came in the mail today...well at least i got to hold it in my hand for a minute. lover boy's exhausted as usual and he was basically like a wall when i was talkign to him on the phone today...he's been like that for hte last few days actually and its a real downer. i do like hearing in his voice that he's happy to talk to me rather than blahish tiredness...eh, im not gonna let him bring me down today. Worked out at the gym today for awhile...did cardio and went swimming. Lil pissed cauz only 10 minutes afte ri started laps they had to close it cauz there was thunder...damn u thunderstorm! oh well, got ot tlak to my friend matt at least. He filled me in on all his latest garb endevors. He's interested in doing bucks too possibly so ill have to remember to get him the info later. talked to my bff and i found out that 'u know who is coming back' next week. not that its a bad thing necessarily...i thinkits more of a bad thing cauz im starting to be okay with things and it scares me. Im afraid to get in that position again and i have a felling that over time i will be...only time can tell. Probably will go running again later cauz i like torturing my body with lots of pain, plus i wanna try to lose the couple lbs i gained since i stopped faire...those post-faire binges are killer! looking forward to going to AC or somewhere this weekend. I just wanna get out and actually do something on my weekend again! yay for summer!

Blecky Blah Blecky

2005-06-30T00:41:27Z

I feel like crap...nto used to this getting up early thing i guess so its only like 8:30 and Im crashing already...the job seems like it will go well for me...Sarah and Kelly are for the most part well behaved and dotn give me a problem. Wish they would let me take a nap during the day though...that would be nice. Couldnt go to the gym today cauz as i was on my way over it was pouring rain and the roads were flooding...ppl cant drive normally so traffic was insane...i just didnt wanna sit on rt 18 for an hour...so i came home. The boy was supposed ot stop by but he had a truck full of mexicans so he decided it wouldnt be a good idea =0( I miss him...hopefully I can see him this weekend a lot since its a holiday...Yeah so thats it...i feel like crap, couldnt work out so I feel lazy and fat...blah bleck...still working on creating my new character...stil havent come up with a name or nething...weird how i can tbe creative when i wanna be...mayeb i'll have on by the weekend

Something to look back with

2005-06-29T21:54:51Z

I know everyone hates those email surveys including me, but every once in awhile its nice to have a checkpoint where u can go and look back to how u used to be....

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: no...though i thinkif he wasnt my couz i would
2. Ran away: nope
3. Pictured your crush naked: hellz yeah

4. Actually seen your crush naked: um....no comment
5. Broken someone's heart: unfortunately yes, but not intentionally
6. Been in love: yes a few times, though they probably didnt deserve it
7. Cried when someone died: yeah
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:yeah...i only want those i cant have
9. Broken a bone: nope
10. Drank alcohol: to obliteration

11. Lied: used to a lot...now not really...only a few white ones
12. Cried in school: yes

WHICH IS BETTER
13. COKE OR PEPSI: coke
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: 7up
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
16. FLOWERS or Candy: flowers..yellow roses (hint hint)
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: clean shaven...but a 5 o'clock shadow can be sexy sometimes

18. LOUD OR QUIET:quiet

19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunette
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: bitchy
21. TALL OR SHORT: tall
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: eyes and wit
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH:god..i dont rememeber...matt at the winter ball 3 yrs ago?

25. WORST THING TO SAY: "I love you, just not like that..."

THE LAST TIME
26. SHOWERED: this morning
27. HAD SEX: saturday
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: monday
29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: my celtic necklace
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: george
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: going home

FAVORITES
32. COLOR: wine red or blue
33. MOVIE: Moulin Rouge
34. BOOK: LOTR
35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: Shakespeare
36. JUICE: cranberry
37. CARS: jeep, 1984 chevy pickup, corvette
38. ICE CREAM: mint chip w/ pinapple topping
39. HOLIDAY: halloween, 4th July, my b-day
40. SEASON: summer
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: slim fast
42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HUNNY: beach

43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: brian
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: jonah
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: good or bad feeling? good=jonah, and one other i cannot disclose....bad=various ppl at faire
46. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: hmmm..wont say for their sake
48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT:Jonah, and surprisingly matt

49. WHO HAS IT EASIER, GUYS OR GIRLS: girls. guys never know what girls are really saying...I never know what i'm really saying. Nor do I ever really know what I want, and the second I do know and get what it is, i change my mind...

DO YOU EVER
50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: no, i refuse to be someone's game
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: sometimes
52. SAVE E-MAILS: depends who they from
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: not really
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: nope

55. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: yes

56. COLOGNE: wear it im guessing? no

57. PERFUME: yes...victorias secret Divine

58. KISS: any chance i get
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: Jonah and me walkign on the beach before we were dating...fireworks started out of no where and lit up the sky..guess i got the answer to my wishing for a sign

60. MOST RECENT BEST ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: figure out what you're doing with your life now! -mom

HAVE YOU:
61. Fallen for your best friend?: yes..best and purest love ever...also the worst and hardest breakup ever
62. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: no..i always at least like who i kiss
63. Been rejected?: yes...not often but when i am its harsh
64. Been in love?: several times
65. Been in lust?: oh yeah...but that usuallly isnt there woithout the love first
66. Used someone?: yes, though i didnt realize it at the time
67. Been used?: yeah...unfortunately
68. Cheated on someone?: sadly yes..not my proudest moment...will never do that again but i dont regret it

69. Been cheated on?: yes, one tiem i know of...hopefully none i dont know of
70. Been kissed?: a lot

71. Done something you regret?: yes..but lookign back i dont think i would've changed nething really

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..
72. You touched?: kelly and sarah..hugged me b4 i left
73. You talked to?: Jonah
74. You hugged?: kelly and sarah
75. You instant messaged?: aaron a week ago
76. You kissed?: Jonah
77. You had sex with?: Jonah
78. You yelled at?: Jonah
79. You laughed with?: Brian
80. Who broke your heart?: Matt
81. Who told you they loved you: Jonah

DO YOU..
82. Color your hair? no
83. Have tattoos? not yet
84. Have piercings? my ears
85. Have a boyfriend?: yes
86. Own a webcam? yeah
88. Ever get off the damn computer? sometimes

89. feature do you find the most attractive on others?: the eyes
90. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: yeah.. if she was good
91. would you marry for money?: "above all things i believe in love"
92. Have you had braces?: no
93. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes
94. Do you like hairy backs?: gross
95. Could you live without a computer?: never
96. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: AIM
97. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 60 something
98. If you could live in any past, where would it be?: in arthurian age of romances

99. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: off
100. What is your favorite fruit?: cherries, apples
101. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: WHITE
102. What is your favorite place to visit?: cape may
103. What is the last movie you saw: Batman Begins
105. Are you photogenic? usually
106. Do you dream in color or black and white?: color
107. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: yeah
108. Is it chipped or fresh?: fresh

109. Do you have any dimples? sometimes...when i smile
110. Do you remember being born?: no
111. Why do you take surveys?: like to remember things i put
112. Do you drink alcohol? once a wek at least...more when im at school
113. Did you like or do you love high school?: loved it, but i couldnt do it again

115. Who do you want to kiss? : jonah or brad pitt
116. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets on the beach and then fallign asleep to awak to the sunrise still in each others arms...sigh....
117. Do you want to live to be 100?: why not?
118. Are flat stomachs important? yes for me...an unobtainable goal of mine
119. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yeah
120. Are you loyal?: tot he end
121. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yeah
122. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
123. Do you have nightmares frequently?: sometimes
124. Do you like your nose?: i guess
125. Do you think you can draw well?: im alright...no picasso
129. Do you write poetry?:when im in the mood

130. Do you snore?: not that i know of
131. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides: sides
132. dog/cat: dog
136. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? : emotional..takes longer to heal and not meds to soften it
139. Do you prefer a piano or a violin? : piano
141. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yeah
142. Do you like to argue?: when its for fun
146. Do you have a middle name? What is it?: Marie
147. Are you basically a happy person?: eh..debatable
148. Are you tired?: not presently
149. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: nope

150. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: no
151. How many phones do you have in your house?: 2
152. How long is your hair?: bra line

153. Do you get along with your parents?: sorta
154. What color eyes do you prefer?: greenish hazel, or deep ocean blue
156. Were you named after anyone?: nope

157. Do you wish on stars?: always
159. When did you last cry?: last monday night...stupid boys
161. Do you like your handwriting?: no..its messy
162. Who do you admire: my cousin
166. What is your most embarrassing CD?: village people...i didnt buy it, it was a gift so i cant throw it away
167. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?: i suppose

168. Are you a daredevil?: so long as someone is there with me i trust with my life
169. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: no
171. Do looks matter?: not as much as personality, but they help
172. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: no
173. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: why not?
175. Are you trendy?: not really
176. How do you release anger?: working out...screamoing and throwing shit around
179. What was your favorite toy as a child?: ninja turtles figurines
180. What class in school do you think is totally useless?: shaping a dyke
181. Do you like sappy love songs?: definatly...im a hopeless romantic

182. Have you ever been on radio or television?: nope

183. Do you have a journal?: yes

184. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: yes
185. Are you sensitive to sarcasm?: sometimes
186. What do you look for in a guy/girl?: someone who is sincere, witty, outgoing, ready to try anything once, encouraging, has strong points where mine are weak, someone i can talk to, romantic, and likes to cuddle and be affectionate, someone who puts me first and makes sure i know im the only one they see or think about being with
187. What is your nickname?: Stace, StAA, Krystal, Sweety, baby Girl, princess...
189. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: never
190. are you worried about right now?: if the trust that was broken can ever be fixed
191. Do you ever wear overalls?: i did in grmmar school
192. Do you think you are strong?: for my size i am
193. What's your mom's job?: spiritual director

194. What's your dad's job?: temp consultant
196. How many wisdom teeth do you have?: had 2..1's gone
199. What would you change about yourself?: lose about 5-10 lbs..i want a toned, flat stomach
200. Who is most likely to respond to this first?: dunno...dont care
201. Who are the people you care most about?: mom, dad, brother, jonah,and my good friends...ie silva, kevin, brian, etc